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Thankful

Forgiving Ourselves

December 14, 2018 by Mary

Do you ever screw up? Do something that you regret later? Maybe someone gets hurt or you just feel stupid for your choices. I’ve done it, so many times, and letting go and forgiving myself is never easy. 

I’ve been talking about overcoming doubt and being thankful. I feel like all these topics go together because they remind us that what we want isn’t always easy, or good for us. 

I started this series talking about my weight and how I wish I could lose weight. When a friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer and died seventeen months later, I made the decision to get healthier for my kids. I did it, too. I dropped 3-4 sizes, I felt so much better, and I lost 40 pounds. Then I was diagnosed with cancer, moved 800 miles, and had my life turned upside down. In six months, I gained back almost all the weight I’d lost, beat cancer, and felt both better and worse. Since the cancer I had was centered around my airways, I could breathe much better, but the weight I gained offset some of that benefit. Now, three years later, I’m still at that increased weight. And I effing hate it. 

But I have to remind myself that I’m here. I have another chance to fight and get better. I went to the oncologist last week and my scans are still clean, three years post treatment. I can fight my weight instead of my cancer. I can lose that weight again, and I’m thankful for that opportunity. 

It still makes me mad that I let myself gain the weight back. Everyone around me blames the steroids I was on and the poor eating habits I picked up during chemo, when I could only stomach grilled cheese for three days and increased my calorie intake to keep my stomach settled. It doesn’t matter why I gained weight again, I need to find a way to get rid of it. For good this time. 

The hardest part of all of it for me is letting go of what I should have done. As a writer, I write about everything. I write my frustrations, what I wish I’d done differently, how I feel. Some people talk it out, with a friend or alone. Maybe you should visualize it, or act it out, or make models like Steve Carell’s character in Welcome to Marwen. Nothing is off limits when it comes to forgiveness — for yourself and others. 

How do you move on and forgive yourself?

When you doubt yourself, who do you trust? 

Forgotten (F-BOMB series)

Life was hard enough. Normal was a fallacy. There were bad guys everywhere. But he couldn’t sit back and let her deal with it. He had to face his demons to fight hers. He had to give everything he had to her to keep her safe. His heart wasn’t a part of the bargain, but he handed it over anyway. 

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Filed Under: F-Bomb, Relationships Tagged With: Blessings, Body Positive, Forgive, Forgotten, Thankful

Being thankful for what we have

November 30, 2018 by Mary

Last week was thanksgiving in the US. It’s a time of year when everyone is celebrating all the things they’re thankful for. Their blessings, their treasures, the people in their lives that make it better. Why do we wait until one day, or one month, to talk about these things?

I wrote last time about moments of doubt and how they challenge us and try to convince us to stay put when we want to move. I feel being thankful for what we have does the opposite. Being thankful gives us hope. It shows us a better way. It tells us it’s worth it. We need that all the time!

I don’t always appreciate the things I have. I bitch about my home and argue with my kids. I complain about my car and my health and my weight. I wish I could blink and change so many things in my life. But if I take a step back and actually look at my life, I have it pretty damn good.

I have a home. It might not be my perfect dream home, but I’m warm in the 30 degree weather, safe, and can provide for my family.

I have a family. I’m not alone like so many people are. I have a husband who loves me, two amazing kids, parents, siblings, aunts and uncles, cousins, nieces, and a nephew, and so many more.

I have friends. My two closest friends don’t live near me, but I have friends. Amazing friends.

I’m healthy. Yes, that’s always up for debate, but I go to the gym, I have plenty to eat, and with any luck, next Friday I’ll find out I’m still in remission.

I have a job I love. So many people can’t say that, but I can. I love it. Yes, it has its challenges, but I love it.

How many people around the world can count all these things? How many people are content? Yes, there are things I want to change, and I added qualifiers to every single thing I’m thankful for, but I’m still thankful for them. My life could be a lot worse. It has been. When I was single and never thought I’d find love. When I was trying to get pregnant and never thought I’d have kids. When I was going through chemo and never thought I’d see my kids grow up. When I was in a job that was killing me and never thought I’d get out. When I moved to a new city and never thought I’d make friends.

Life is hard. No one is going to tell you it’s easy. And if they do, chances are they’re holding back. Because nothing is easy, but it’s so damn worth it. And all your blessings prove that to you every day.

Never give up on your dreams. Be thankful for how far you’ve come, and keep pushing toward that next dream.

What are you thankful for?

 

When you doubt yourself, who do you trust? 

She was alone. She liked it that way, because it meant she wouldn’t get hurt again. But he pushed past her walls and changed everything. He made her see herself the way he saw her. And she knew she’d never love again like she loved him. 

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Filed Under: F-Bomb, Relationships Tagged With: Blessings, Forgotten, Thankful

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