• Skip to primary navigation
  • Skip to main content
  • Skip to footer

MARY E THOMPSON

it's a curvy road to happily ever after

  • Home
  • Books
    • F-BOMB: Curvy Vigilantes
    • Book Boyfriends Wanted
    • F-BOMB: SEALs Love Curves
    • Big & Beautiful: Opposites Attract
    • Raise A Glass
    • Big & Beautiful
    • Paradise Park
    • Better In Bed
    • Love On Deck
    • Standalone Novels
    • Boxed Sets
  • Shop
  • Freebies
  • Blog
  • Meet Mary
  • Subscribe

Forgive

Forgiving Ourselves

December 14, 2018 by Mary

Do you ever screw up? Do something that you regret later? Maybe someone gets hurt or you just feel stupid for your choices. I’ve done it, so many times, and letting go and forgiving myself is never easy. 

I’ve been talking about overcoming doubt and being thankful. I feel like all these topics go together because they remind us that what we want isn’t always easy, or good for us. 

I started this series talking about my weight and how I wish I could lose weight. When a friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer and died seventeen months later, I made the decision to get healthier for my kids. I did it, too. I dropped 3-4 sizes, I felt so much better, and I lost 40 pounds. Then I was diagnosed with cancer, moved 800 miles, and had my life turned upside down. In six months, I gained back almost all the weight I’d lost, beat cancer, and felt both better and worse. Since the cancer I had was centered around my airways, I could breathe much better, but the weight I gained offset some of that benefit. Now, three years later, I’m still at that increased weight. And I effing hate it. 

But I have to remind myself that I’m here. I have another chance to fight and get better. I went to the oncologist last week and my scans are still clean, three years post treatment. I can fight my weight instead of my cancer. I can lose that weight again, and I’m thankful for that opportunity. 

It still makes me mad that I let myself gain the weight back. Everyone around me blames the steroids I was on and the poor eating habits I picked up during chemo, when I could only stomach grilled cheese for three days and increased my calorie intake to keep my stomach settled. It doesn’t matter why I gained weight again, I need to find a way to get rid of it. For good this time. 

The hardest part of all of it for me is letting go of what I should have done. As a writer, I write about everything. I write my frustrations, what I wish I’d done differently, how I feel. Some people talk it out, with a friend or alone. Maybe you should visualize it, or act it out, or make models like Steve Carell’s character in Welcome to Marwen. Nothing is off limits when it comes to forgiveness — for yourself and others. 

How do you move on and forgive yourself?

When you doubt yourself, who do you trust? 

Forgotten (F-BOMB series)

Life was hard enough. Normal was a fallacy. There were bad guys everywhere. But he couldn’t sit back and let her deal with it. He had to face his demons to fight hers. He had to give everything he had to her to keep her safe. His heart wasn’t a part of the bargain, but he handed it over anyway. 

Available now!

Ebook on Amazon | Kobo | Apple Books | B&N | Google Play| Smashwords

Filed Under: F-Bomb, Relationships Tagged With: Blessings, Body Positive, Forgive, Forgotten, Thankful

Before Footer

He was the one that got away. Ran away really. But He was the one that got away. Ran away really. But he came back. Almost twenty years later. With a teenager. Wanting another chance. 

➤https://geni.us/h5qj

#contemporaryromance #bookboyfriendswanted #steamyromance #smalltownromance #bookgasm  #readromance #authorsofig #indieauthor #newrelease
Ten people were taken from my city over the weeken Ten people were taken from my city over the weekend. Ten people who did nothing wrong. The person who took their lives was filled was hate and took it out on innocent people. #BuffaloNY is the City of Good Neighbors. I didn't know those ten people, but I feel their loss like the rest of my city does. We are all neighbors, and we all hurting. 

My thoughts and prayers are with the families and friends of Aaron Salter, Ruth Whitfield, Pearl Young, Celestine Chaney, Roberta Drury, Heyward Patterson, Margus Morrison, Andre Mackneil, Geraldine Talley, and Katherine Massey; and with the survivors: Zaire Goodman, Jennifer Warrington, and Christopher Braden.
Dating your ex in a small town means everyone know Dating your ex in a small town means everyone knowing your business. Like the fact that he broke your heart. They should all be on my side, right? Too bad he’s bringing an old town hangout back to life. And getting everyone involved. And making all of us fall in love with him. 

READ NOW ➤ https://geni.us/h5qj

#contemporaryromance #bookboyfriendswanted #steamyromance #smalltownromance #bookgasm #bookporn #readromance #authorsofig #indieauthor #newrelease
All those books make me so happy. I could curl up All those books make me so happy. I could curl up and read all day in there! #readhere #authorlife #readromance #amreading #authorsofig #bookedweekend
RELEASE DAY! His Curvy Genius is here! Grab your c RELEASE DAY! His Curvy Genius is here! Grab your copy now. Second chance, small town romance. ➤https://geni.us/h5qj

#contemporaryromance #bookboyfriendswanted #steamyromance #smalltownromance #bookgasm #bookporn #readromance #authorsofig #indieauthor #newrelease
Follow me on Instagram

Footer

ConvertKit Form

 

Follow Me

Shop Now

© Copyright 2013-2021 Mary E Thompson · All Rights Reserved · Powered by WordPress ·

This site is restricted to adults only. If you are not 18+, please leave. Any links to external sites may be affiliate links, which means I earn a commission from qualifying purchases. As an Amazon Associate I earn from qualifying purchases. Links to Barnes and Noble, Kobo, Apple, Google Play, and Smashwords are also affiliate links. Privacy Policy